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Second solo project June-July 2006, Dwelling Field, synchronous with projects by Debra >Tolchinsky, Dianna Frid, Sarah >Westphal and >Jamez Dabramski Dean. Publication of crox-card 35 (Dwelling Field) and crox-book NR 3: Borders (ISBN 90-76593-O4-3). 

Crox-card 33 shows a still from the video Dwelling Field (2005); a litany of quotes.

Extract from Borders: Neither remembers the push nor the fall, except that the bridge receded into the horizon and, as we passed through the water crust, the sun, sounds, and the distant figures faded. More than anything else we remember that underneath the water nothing was sharp. 

Very quickly we found ourselves sitting on top of a large rock discussing death. Although we were young, we knew that we were filling with water and that we were dying. By all accounts we recall this new environment as quite pleasurable and as a consequence one of us wished to stay and die, while the other hoped to explore the land again. 

I was the one that wanted to stay. She asked me if her face looked pale. I told her it did not, although it did. She did not believe me and so she said nothing else. Without an answer I looked around some more. I was so amazed that everything was so quiet and soft death did not seem so awful or even finite for that matter. Gradually my eyes looked back at her. I had wanted to talk some more. But she began to rise. I panicked. Instantly I was frightened by my surroundings, I had never been without her. I was suffocating. I could not be without her. It was just one second, maybe two, that I grasped her ankle and rose to the surface to face the woman on the bridge. 

The last thing we remember is that the sun had faded, the air was cold and our lungs were filled with the Allegany River. (p. 38-40)/  

NOTARY PUBLIC. The following documents were included in the second crox project by CarianaCarianne, crox 182 (June-July 2006):

AFFIANT STATEMENT/ (regarding: terrorism)/ State of Illinois/ County of Cook. Article X: Prevention of Hostile Acts and Consequences Instead of defending a territory of soil or hoping to dress a street lane with my name, I walked the path that leads directly West. Out my front door, I began walking after the imagination of my heart all to dig a hole and bury the hand that has so much power to bear my sign. (this 27 day of August 2005)

AFFIANT STATEMENT/ (regards to: self-preservation)/ State of Illinois/ County of Cook. Article V, section 2: Jurisdiction and Biography I do not fully understand what it means to breathe - to draw air. I do not know exactly what it means to remember - to draw an image./ Regardless of what creates me, and rather BECAUSE of what creates me, I intend to battle my own preservation. (this 24 day of August 2005)

AFFIANT STATEMENT/ (regarding: biography)/ State of Illinois/ County of Cook/ Article V, section 1: Jurisdiction and Biography Walking to retrieve the mail from the carrier, my eyes saw. My eyes recorded something. I tried to be without need of situating such a thing. (this 24 day of August 2005)

AFFIANT STATEMENT/ (regards to: not governing another)/ State of Illinois/ County of Cook/ Article II, section 2, item a: Structure and Composition of Relational Authority My mind spins as plain-clothed realities rush in. It is within these moment that I uncontrollably struggle with the common car and the subsequent car pools, car accident and car jackings. I know that I am rational because I want to continue. I feel that I might find liberation for the body as it might reside in the uncontrollable spinning but I stop. Bound by one skin, I can not force her with my curiosity. I step back. I stop the loud voices and the ticking clocks. I slowly become anchored again and accept the auto industry as it clearly passes before my living room window. (this 24 day of August 2005)

AFFIANT STATEMENT/ (regarding: formulating individual politics)/ State of Illinois/ County of Cook/ Article VI, section 1, item b: Powers and Responsibilities I retrieved dental records from Dr. Bocks office. Since my birth was not recorded, the attached x-ray shall take the place of a birth certificate. With a jaw outstretched, this shall be the first image of my life and the last image that can confirm my death. (this 1 day of September 2005)

AFFIANT STATEMENT/ (regards to: volition)/ State of Illinois/ County of Cook/ Article II, section 3, item a: Structure and Composition of Relational Authority It was not so long ago that I sat down for broth made from sooks instead of opening the door and dying in the snow./ I remember sitting for hours with forearms resting on the wood, being still and taking small sips. Sitting there with my secrets, hands had circled my hollow shell, warming my back./ It was then that I know how to survive. I was then that I know how not to die. (this 1 day of September 2005)

AFFIANT STATEMENT/ (regarding: participation)/ State of Illinois/ County of Cook/ Article IV, section 1, item a: Withdrawal Peace records exist amidst war./ I stand here quietly waiting knowing that I am confronting my death. (this 8 day of September 2005)

AFFIANT STATEMENT/ (regarding: right to express frontiers)/ State of Illinois/ County of Cook/ Article VII: Human Rights and the Rule of Law With my finger extended into space, I drafted an image of myself. At most this line left no scar and, at least, the physical drawing lacked longevity for symbolic representation./ In accordance with the Universal Declaration of Human Rights, Article 19:/ Everyone has the right to freedom of opinion and espression; this right includes freedom to hold opinions without interference and to seek, receive and impart information and ideas through any media regardless of frontiers. (this 4 day of October 2005)